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damn...well, it looks like my plans to go to japan have been scuppered, i'm going to korea instead. tomorrow. was hoping to travel over to japan from there but it looks like i won't have the time >.<. well either way...theres always next yr...

congratulations on all you've accomplished, and all the best for bringing this chapter to an end

erm...i guess it means nothing that i'll probably be in and around tokyo in the next couple of months? that's a shame...this is a great idea indeed. once in a lifetime opportunity if it happened.

lol thanks, i know i'm an idiot sometimes :D . i'm trying to fix that part of me. gimme a few years, maybe....and of course i know that these are words of advice and not hatred. one thing i can say is, when i do eventually grow up, i will have learnt some things along the way. and maybe mahjong will...

wow...it's funny to look back at the first posts and see all this hope, and see it (rightly) deteriorate into an all-out slag-fest. and my fault more than anyones. i feel really bad that i find it so hard to do the right thing, and pissing people off with my ignorance at the same time, but i suppose...

thank you very much, i'm looking to be vilified. i hate myself for making so many mistakes, for wasting my time, wasting the 'best years of my life'. i hate myself for ever getting manipulated. and i hate myself that i know that i can only do one thing, and find it so hard to do. i want to hear you ...

thank you. i've waited a long time to hear someone say that they feel compassion for her, that her past has created the person she is, and impedes her future. that she has been abused and that she isnt a bad person, but has had bad things done to her. and its funny how it takes such a strong and und...

somewhere along the way, my innocence was stolen from me. or i misplaced it, i cant decide. its been a slow errosion, but the events of last week caused me to snap. i had noticed myself changing of late, and not even after the first time we made love. that wasnt it. but somehow i began to lose mysel...

she cheated on me with jughead. she slept with him. i know because i found pictures of her posing, in the same thing she wore on valentines day with me, on her computer. then in the nude. then lying next to him. and smiling. and then she confessed she had slept with him. she slept with him in decemb...

ok, we're gonna need to find another name for jughead... last night she dropped a bit of a bombshell. not a bit, a huge bombshell. atomic proportions. last night, we talked over dinner, and i asked her about jughead. i asked because recently we've taken huge steps with each other, planning to move i...

today was one of those perfect, romantic days that can only happen with someone you love. began straightforwardly, and ended spectacularly. i attended uni in the morning, picked up my exam results (pleasantly surprising) and met charlotte immediately after. we had a bland lunch - mcdonalds, on her i...

thanks a lot, i'm obviously very happy as well. its taken a lot of time and effort but i feel our relationship has finally stabilised. i wouldnt say its an ending just yet but i can certainly say that we dont feel the need to worry about each other anymore. she even told me that she misses jughead t...

that line, about knowing what you want, i think i've reached another level in my life that i've never been before where i am closer to understanding it (but not yet). through my current relationship, i am beginning to find out what i want in life, and the more i find what i want, the less it bothers...

probably the best break-up song i ever heard. obviously its pessimistic but that last line just pings a note of darkness and honesty that you so rarely hear. it's wonderful pearl jam - black Hey...oooh... Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay Were laid spread out before me as her body onc...

gawd do i love this show!!! i like how they've picked up the pace this new season, they havent dawdled on revelations as much as before. to anyone watching this show regularly, i need someone to discuss with!!! also should add tho that it still isnt as good as the new season of 24, or my old favouri...

apparently i'm leonard ''bones'' mccoy. that means nothing to me...

and i'm also bob, but tbh i have no idea how it came to that conclusion...i think my answers were pretty random...

i've been posting my story of my charlotte for about 5 months now, and its been a bit of a drama. like the usual suspects, twisting this way and that. anyway, my short-sightedness has meant that the kind people here have been guiding me with sage advice and generally watching out for my well-being, ...

lol i think i finally went too far...

i had 'the talk' with charlotte recently. i said everything i wanted, all i had detailed in my earlier post. i stayed strong, and when she asked me if i just wanted to be friends, i said yes. but i made a mistake. i couldnt say that i didnt still want her. under different circumstances she would sti...

fight club, still one of the most audacious and outright accomplished movies ever made. that movie is quite simply perfect. i've never seen a movie with so many deliberately complex, contradictary ideas pulled off in such scorching style. gawd i love that movie! oh, and match point the other day, bu...