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ok i've given it a LOT of thought, and here i offer my final conclusion. firstly, charlotte. she is still hung up on jughead. everyone, including her, tell me that she used to really like him and always talked about him. theres obviously something very strong there. i know he was there with her thro...

oh...dear...what i have to say will please noone, but its happened, so theres no choice but to say it. i'm prepared for the flak to come... firstly, with regards to the journal, i gave it to her the day before our final exam. we have been speaking a lot recently, and one time she asked about it, and...

something strange happened today. i went to meet her, for the first time since we broke up. the last thing she said before was that she wanted to wait and see if i was right for her, and not break up, but just be on a break. today bent the rules in so many ways. i went to meet her today, and she jog...

gotta hate this; it sneaks up on you. it bides its time, waits until you're alone, in bed, in the shower, walking. and then it overcomes you. its not just the idea of being seperated, its like the end of an entire lifestyle. an abrupt end to love. all the good times of the past reduced to memories. ...

i spoke to her this morning and told her i thought it best if we broke it off. she told me to think about what she had said last night and see what she really wanted. i told her i knew, that she still wanted to be with me, but was upset at certain ways i had acted. there were many things about me th...

i've come to the concluison, that she asked me to call her, if i can be friends with her. she ais that we're not breaking up, just being friends, getting to know each other. and maybe she will find the right person in that time. i take great offense from thta. i hve decided that tomorrow, i will ell...

i jus realised, i think i'm over her. again, because i'm pissed i dont know how much is the truth, but i spoke to my friends, and good friends they are, and they are going thru the same thing, or have done in the past. and there is always the right person in the world, but i know shes not the one. t...

i looked back at my journal, and cried uncontrollably. i remember when i was the happiest person in the world. i was because i had found the person i had always wanted to share my life with. just everything about her was perfect to me. she was my dream come true. i hd always imagined that ideal pers...

thank you, honestly, i have never felt so much compassion as when i am here. i'm getting pissed with my flatmates right now, not the most elegant solution but all i can think of right now. i've never felt so bad, but at the same time, i've never felt so much support either. thank you so much to ever...

we've just broken up. i'm sitting here, with beer in hand, watching her webcam and writing this. and i dont know wot to write. several hrs ago, we met up and had some fun. and now, through the wonders of the web, we're nothing. just friends she says, in case she meets someone more to her taste. that...

i met her for the 5-6th time in as many days today. we havnt been spending much time together, and in fits and starts when we have. its been like this ever since the xmas holidays started, and could be for any number of reasons, the most important of which i assumed was because of our exams. she rai...

i'd agree for the most part, i also think that loving someone means wanting what's best for them regardless. thing is, the sticking point for me is that i generally believe that i want the best for everyone i'm close to anyway. i mean, my parents want to divorce, and i know that, despite a few compl...

i really like the description, thats how i always described it to others, that its not a traditional romance. a rather corny way of describing love is that it is when two bodies share one soul and i think that in this movie it is kind of true in that both characters bond because of the stage in thei...

i mentioned in my thread about my charlotte that she made the distinction between loving someone and being in love. for the longest time, we've been saying to each other that we love each other. but only today did i say that i am in love with her, and she didnt respond. but she indirectly wondered i...

its very late atm. recently i've become something of a creature of the night, emerging past midday each day to catch a few hrs of sunshine before i'm back to my natural habitat. this is perhaps reflected in the way i feel recently, when i've been away from my charlotte. the isolation of the night he...

her reaction to those words seems to be very good. she was very happy on the night, her mood lightened immediately and i could tell it was exactly what she wanted to hear (and what i felt). i think she realises herself that trust is very hard to give, and jealousy is in a way a sign of caring for so...

ah dammit, so i wanna see match point, and brokeback mountain, and jarhead, and memoirs of a geisha, and capote, and ultimately probably wont see any unless they're all still showing from the 23rd onwards. stupid exam period...

so, yesterday was a spectacularly weird day. again. and again...etc etc...she ended up being too busy to meet me, but it turns out it was because she went to help Jughead find a home and didnt tell me, even when i spoke to her when she was away and thought she hadnt gone anywhere. i asked her why an...

oh fgs....well, all the plans have gone to hell. the exams are proving to be more of a difficulty to us than we had hoped, and sadly being the responsible individuals we are (damn responsibility...) work has prevailed over pleasure and now we're stuck revising, with little to no time to spare. i mus...

how are your son and daughter finding college now? do you still see them much? and how are the other college guys and gals on this board finding it? my mother insists on visiting practically every other week, and my charlotte found it amusing at first but plain disturbing now. its been 3-4 months si...