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hi. i'm new here. and i'm not sure what i am seaching for, except maybe a little release from the pent up emotion of being lost that keeps me awake.
on the outside, i appear to have it all. i'm only 22 and already have a loving husband, a great education, a comfortable life. but i, too, am lost. you see, i am a thinker. i feel things no one around me feels. i see things no one around me sees. so many thoughts and emotions run through my blood and i can never hold them back. i hold an enchantment and complete awe of my surroundings that i cannot share. i am enthralled by so many things and have no medium with which to express it all. like an artist without paint, a musician without music.
does it have to do with love? not sure. i don't think so. i think it has more to do with simply feeling unconnected. pent up, lost in a mind full of thoughts and a sea of "flashy photographers" and "that girl". doomed to always be the one seeing "how stupid everyone is", in the words of charlotte's oh-so-doting husband. doomed to sit in a window and stare or to be labeled too intense. doomed to sit awake at night wondering why i think so much or to listen to ridiculous self-discovery tapes. but not destined to have that chance encounter that makes it all worth it. that reminds you of the beauty of the gift of thought you have been given. that appreciates it all alongside you, even if for a day.
so what does this have to do with an intro post? it doesn't. just enjoying the anonymity of it all, with that glimmer that there might be others who are blessed, or cursed, with this similiar mind, these similiar thoughts. of being lost inside yourself, longing for a connection with something, anything, and wondering "does it ever get any easier"?.
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on the outside, i appear to have it all. i'm only 22 and already have a loving husband, a great education, a comfortable life. but i, too, am lost. you see, i am a thinker. i feel things no one around me feels. i see things no one around me sees. so many thoughts and emotions run through my blood and i can never hold them back. i hold an enchantment and complete awe of my surroundings that i cannot share. i am enthralled by so many things and have no medium with which to express it all. like an artist without paint, a musician without music.
does it have to do with love? not sure. i don't think so. i think it has more to do with simply feeling unconnected. pent up, lost in a mind full of thoughts and a sea of "flashy photographers" and "that girl". doomed to always be the one seeing "how stupid everyone is", in the words of charlotte's oh-so-doting husband. doomed to sit in a window and stare or to be labeled too intense. doomed to sit awake at night wondering why i think so much or to listen to ridiculous self-discovery tapes. but not destined to have that chance encounter that makes it all worth it. that reminds you of the beauty of the gift of thought you have been given. that appreciates it all alongside you, even if for a day.
so what does this have to do with an intro post? it doesn't. just enjoying the anonymity of it all, with that glimmer that there might be others who are blessed, or cursed, with this similiar mind, these similiar thoughts. of being lost inside yourself, longing for a connection with something, anything, and wondering "does it ever get any easier"?.
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I think we mostly have similar minds here. It isn't as noisy here as it once was, as we've kind of wrung all that we can out of the movie. But welcome, and post anything you like!
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I feel like that sometimes, like no one out there truly fits me or understands me...like I am "lost" in my own skin and need a connection with someone or something but it never seems to come- "does it ever get easier?" NO. I guess the more years you live in this planet, the harder and tougher things get because you discover how raw life is day by day...hoping that everything will get better once you are found. That is my point of view. Welcome and enjoy!!
Nothing is more beautiful than something that will not last
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That's a great line. I can't beleive Sofia wrote it herself - she must have gotten that from someone.
I'm in my 50s and I still don't feel that yet; maybe never will. That is - I guess I don't know myself or what I want - so the other part follows also.
But hey - I'm still young (at heart) so there is plenty of time!
I'm in my 50s and I still don't feel that yet; maybe never will. That is - I guess I don't know myself or what I want - so the other part follows also.
But hey - I'm still young (at heart) so there is plenty of time!
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Right then, Ok, I guess we're done here!!!johnmonkey wrote:It isn't as noisy here as it once was, as we've kind of wrung all that we can out of the movie.
We'll be closing up shop at the end of the month.
Get everything while you can at our giant liquidation sale!
All comments and reviews 100% off! Absolutely free!!!
Ok just kidding!
Yes welcome and it's nice for new folks to catch up on the prior discussions and then just hang out and talkBut welcome, and post anything you like!
about whatever in the company of like minded folks.
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that line, about knowing what you want, i think i've reached another level in my life that i've never been before where i am closer to understanding it (but not yet). through my current relationship, i am beginning to find out what i want in life, and the more i find what i want, the less it bothers me if i dont have it now. if i dont have what i want it doesnt bother me to let go, because i no longer have this feeling of aimlessness, i have a sense of direction. i never have to worry about being lost. finding a meaning to life is a personal matter, but having purpose is very comforting. it's a reason to get up in the morning.
"[quote:8faa3884ed="silvermoon"]through my current relationship, i am beginning to find out what i want in life, and the more i find what i want, the less it bothers me if i dont have it now.[/quote:8faa3884ed]
Sounds like a great relationship!"
Sounds like a great relationship!"
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I am totally lost too, without the articularcy to get anything I'm really thinking out in the open, without the self-esteem or will to change anything, with little in the way of a future and a shitty life currently that I seem almost resigned too, yet at the same time I'm concious of resigning myself to it, but seem weirdly paralysed and unsure as how to change anything.
Decide what you want out of life. You (probably) only get one shot. Then determine what you need to achieve it, make a plan and Go For It!blades7896 wrote:I am totally lost too, without the articularcy to get anything I'm really thinking out in the open, without the self-esteem or will to change anything, with little in the way of a future and a shitty life currently that I seem almost resigned too, yet at the same time I'm concious of resigning myself to it, but seem weirdly paralysed and unsure as how to change anything.
It's all about the journey, baby.
"[quote:10f2cee726="blades7896"]I am totally lost too, without the articularcy to get anything I'm really thinking out in the open, without the self-esteem or will to change anything, with little in the way of a future and a shitty life currently that I seem almost resigned too, yet at the same time I'm concious of resigning myself to it, but seem weirdly paralysed and unsure as how to change anything.[/quote:10f2cee726]
I feel like that sometimes, but not as much as I used to. I recommend getting married, and then you can turn your critical skills off yourself and onto someone else full-time!"
I feel like that sometimes, but not as much as I used to. I recommend getting married, and then you can turn your critical skills off yourself and onto someone else full-time!"